Published in Nothing to Hide: Voices of Trans and Gender Diverse Australia, edited by Sam Elkin, Alex Gallagher, Bobuq Sayed and Yves Rees, 2022. This is a found poem from medical reports over several years.
Trans Broken Arm Syndrome
Robin is a 22 year old transgender
who is in the process of managing this
Robin has a history of mood disturbance
She reports mental clouding
gender reassignment
not planning at this stage for bilateral mastectomies
She is not on androgen therapy
There is no family history
There is no family
I note the recent biochemistry
For her hyperparathyroidism there are a number of interacting factors
and sunlight exposure
weight loss
.
Robin was born following a full term pregnancy
She bruises easily
She has had problems with joint dislocation soft tissue injury
tachycardia hypoxia hypoventilation
required brief endotracheal intubation
She wears glasses for shortsightedness
Head circumference was normal
She has normal facial features
neurological deterioration weakness and pain
always fatigued
regular cardiac surveillance
This is to be further investigated
Her mood was jovial
She suffers
.
Robin has identified overtly as genderqueer
This has included a formal name change to Robin
preference for use of the ‘they’ pronoun
interesting developmental history
Hedonic capacity and energy levels remain variable
Robin presented as of small compact build dressed in blue jeans,
a tee shirt with words ‘the Revolution and etc.’
They wore earrings and glasses and had a clear, pale complexion
Their blue dyed hair was cut fashionably,
and a floral tattoo was visible on their arm
Affect was animated and enthusiastic,
with good eye contact and articulate speech
Thought form was well integrated
with a highly developed reflective capacity
earlier traumatic experiences
Whilst not questioning Robin’s identification as innately androgynous
I do wonder
.
In relation to your gender neutral status
we are unable to change this on the system
.
She has a number of issues to sort out
I suspect that her brain chemistry is complex
significance of this is not clear
At a medical level she has unresolved symptoms
her blood tests reveal
she has ongoing investigations
I am checking
I am hoping
I am happy
Time will tell
.
whole body pain and diffuse dislocations in joints
congenital defect of the aortic valve of the heart
abnormality of the ascending aorta
require corrective surgery
There is also a history
Robin has had to suffer
.
Robin’s presentation is so apparently complex and so undocumented
I found it very difficult to make headway with her case
I found it very difficult during our consultation
Robin presented with her partner _______
who is also known to some of the doctors at my practice
currently we believe transitioning from male to female
provided a supportive presence often whispering
occasionally inaudible
I had no further information about this
.
She has been labelled I think
She says
she claims
She also has a diagnosis
She claims also a history
when pressed by my surprise at such a young age
she said there were also ‘gender issues’
she has normal female genitalia
she describes her lungs as ‘more or less functioning’
she is due to have a cardiac MRI but the indication for this is unclear
I had nothing today to corroborate any of this history
she was really unable to give me a reasonable rationale
She is clearly suffering and distressed
unclear to me what problems are organic functional
This is complicated by having a large number of doctors
On examination she was very unusually
but neatly dressed, had many visible tattoos,
was softly spoken and polite but as mentioned
her conversation was full of medical jargon
Somewhat reluctantly I am organising an MRI and MR angiogram
.
Clinical notes: Not provided
deficiency noted
persistently unexplained
in excess exceeded normal
elevation suggests possible sarcoidosis
aplastic mild opacification
Tests pending
recurrent infections blood transfusion reactions
other immunodeficiencies may be associated
Suggest testing
Recommend measurement
for screening at risk individuals
subject to the following conditions
.
The patient tolerated the procedure well
.
The primary site of pain is really the whole body
Robyn was extremely cooperative
This must be extremely tiring for her
Her quality of life is now markedly reduced
she has accepted the fact that her lifespan may be markedly reduced
.
This diagnosis has a severe negative impact on her functional capacity
includes but is not limited to ligaments
tendons, intestines, brain and cognitive function
heart, blood vessels and other internal organs
recurring joint injuries
can only be managed with no cure
.
The best Robin can hope for is to manage
prevent deterioration of her musculoskeletal system
loss of independence
to meet the specific stability requirements of the upper cervical spine
It is the gold standard to keep the body as strong as possible
.
Robin has been given a significant, permanent diagnosis
The implications are many and complex
.
It is always a joy to see Robin
Robin often pushes through to the point of exhaustion
They have been excellent with communication around their disability
to pursue a happy and fulfilling life
We still face consistent challenges
structural instabilities systemic dysfunction
.
values should be interpreted with caution